Saturday, September 27, 2008

Friday Night, Baby are you Sleeping?

I can't hold this metaphor to long,
Won't you open up your window.


So my week and life has been so hectic and screwy lately.
Things just never go that way I'd wish them to go.
I kinda wish I accepted that offer.
Or Even better if this feeling I have for you would just end.
I think I love you, your always on my mind especially when I don't want to think about you.
Just things never go how I'd like them to.
I just wish that sometime, my life were a Musical, or maybe a fairy-tale.
Happy Endings and all.

All I have to do is put my longing to one side.
Tell myself that love is an ever-changing situation.
Passion would have cooled and the magic would have died.
Better to have lost him when the Ties were barely binding.

I've never heard of a musical without a happy ending.
I mean, Take Avenue Q for instance.
Through-out the show, Princeton is looking for his "Purpose".
Even though he doesn't find it, he still has something to look forward to in life.
A Future with Kate.

Stop! Don't! No! Please!

Enough with the comparisons.
The offer I mentioned earlier was to move.
Over the summer, I had to make a decision if I wanted to move to Illinois for a year, or stay here.
Overall because of the person I like I decided to stay.
Now I'm starting to wish I didn't.
True, My mom wasn't going to let me go anyway.
But Still.

I Don't think it was a smart choice on my part.
Ya, I would have lost/missed all of my friends, and of course not get to be in this Amazing CW class.
But, I would have been able to get away from my emotions.
Escape for a while, to not have everything go wrong in my head.

Is that seat taken?
Congratulations!
Would you like to take a walk with me?
My Mind it kinda goes fast, I'll try to slow it down for you.
I think I Want to take a drive, I want to give you something.
been wanting to give you for years.
My Heart.

These emotons seemed to just get stirred up alot more today.
This morning I had my friend give the person I like a note.
(Well it wasn't the morning it was 6th period)
I was nervous the whole day.
Then no reply, or anything.
Then I went to have dinner with a bunch of friends for one's birthday, and felt fake.
I felt like I had a mask on the whole time.
I felt like I was holding something back from all of them.
Though I wasn't because they all know everything about me.
Then I left the dinner, and went to the East vs. South Game at the 3rd Quarter.
The object of my affection was there.
It was akward. Because I really like the person.
Though I feel as if they just push by me, not even thinking Im there.
I think theres a mutual feeling, but I never know with them.
And its horirble.

The night Did finally get better.
After dropping off two kids, me and Marissa drove.
We just drove.
I Kinda vented, but we mainly just drove.
And Listened to Demi Levato, The Jonas Brothers, and other music we love.
I never felt so alive, as we sped around town.

So Take Away the Melody.
All Thats left is memories of lovers, friends, and enemies.
But there all faded.
You may not remember me, I havent got the strength to carry on.


But I know I'll be ok. Sooner or Later.

-JJ

Lyrics Provided in this Blog in order of Appearence:
Friday Night by The Click Five.
Easy as Life from Aida
Mama I'm a Big Girl Now from HAIRSPRAY!
Congratulations! by Blue October [ ft. Imogen Heap ]
The Last Song by McFly.


Authors Note: The "Object of My Affection" is one of the "You's" in You.

3 comments:

Jessikaa! said...

JJ, this is kind of depressing but it's good. Escpecially to get yor feeling out. But I love it :]



ahhmzing job :]]

cwzane08 said...

JJ; the Nietschze of our era! I liked the addition of musical lyrics inbetween the stanzas/paragraphs. I didnt really know this however, until the end, so "No, stop, Please!" kinda freaked me out. Still though, this blog is the best kind of blog, a thought provoking one.

Larissa Richelle said...

Wow, you're writing syle's really good! I can't belive I read that until the end. (Usually I'm lazy when it comes to reading. <__<) It's a bit sad, but I think that's why it appealed to me. You don't see many people writing sad things. The addition of the lyrics to emphasize points was a good idea, as well.